day#10 The devil became alive and spread his evil spirit…

Published March 2, 2012 by mydayswithoutchocolate

…he did!!! OMG So evil DX

We sit at work, of course working. Suddenly-good smell. sweet smell. it becomes more and more intense. first vanilla, then like popcorn, then like sweet milk, after that like pudding then cinnamon…omg it was not only me in the office trying  to figure out what it was. nobody knew…but EVERYBODY wanted to HAVE it!!!! All my collegues – including me – had been suffering to hell. Everybody wanted to have it!

Some time later we found out: it was Pudding with cinnamon and bananas! who had been the evil in person to heat it in the kitchen and leaving without sharing??? must have been the even more mean devil grand father…but luckily it was not only me wishing to have an audience and get something from him 😀

As I told you, I wanted to buy some sweets today – luckily no money *haha (<– laughing at myself)

Today I also made sports unwillingly: I bought some stuff. Went up stairs to my apartment. then I heard *pam pam pam pam pam pam* in a good timed rythm. damn it. it had been a cane rolling or better falling or drumming down the stairs ALL WAY BACK DOWN TO THE FLOOR…stair by stair by stair.  Of course I needed to get it or just leave it for my neighbours – but this would be last option I guess *sigh So I needed to get it and just tried to think positive “You will train your butt”.  So whenever I need to take a long walk of stairs, this is actually the thinking that keeps me motivated – a nice ass. I hope next time my stuff won’t start to fly around because I should train my arms or something like that…Any other ideas?

Today was, despite the things mentioned, a success, so I am really curious what’s up for tomorrow!

stay tuned – Curiously yours



day#9 Give me a break – where are my sweets?

Published March 1, 2012 by mydayswithoutchocolate

Gosh today was hard…

We went out tonight so I actually fall out of bed this morning (since we don’t have beds at the moment, just having my mattress on the ground..) and walked myself to work. Since it was good weather and sun was shining I felt good, but – yeah “BUT” – work was loooong today. Unplanned. After a bit after lunch I felt like my energy level is falling under the scale of feeling alive. I wonder if the devil had a nice talk to my energy in hell… Seriously I needed input, but I haven’t had any…

I guess you know the feeling if you want to have something soooo badly, but your not allowed to have? It is like the situation with the forbidden sign: “Don’t touch” is stated. What are you doing? YOU TOUCH! Even if it would be a shark biting your whole arm…you WOULD think about touching, right? If it is not thaaaat dangerous, you touch. For sure. Who ever says something different is a lier! You know this situation, so you know my condition…I need SUGAR. But I did’t had any at work. I managed somehow 😉 but going home was more like a zombie walk.

I fell into bed and slept – best way to overcome your sugar longings…After woke up, I forced myself to have some salad and do some sports, just some exercises. I feel like if I do more now, I won’t be able to get up again tomorrow, and this is not what I want…

Tomorrow I need to go to work again – unplanned, but it has to be. Still I like it. However it is freaking horrific, if you know you don’t have much time left to catch the deadlines for your papers…without energy even worse! – CHOCOLATE!!!! definitely needed, luckily my mind keeps me from it…I guess tomorrow I will not only shop for the green stuff which keeps you healthy (at least everybody says so), but also some sweets I am allowed to eat! Otherwise I gonna shrink to a creepy low energy jelly fish…

For today, I am finished, my mind is not able to think directly in “paper lines”. My bed is calling – can you hear it?

tiredly yours


day#7#8 Did I said get on my nerves?

Published February 29, 2012 by mydayswithoutchocolate

shalalalaaaaa yesterday SUCCESS. Today…well kinda success. 

I went with our new trainee from Brazil to have a great “currywurst” and afterwards having ice cream…but no chocolate! well but I am still filled but wana have chocolate now – so badly. And I feel bad having had such a bad lunch, but it was goood! so it was worth it, and sometimes ur allowed to! At least I think so 🙂

Today I got from work, guess what? I was tired. So why just dont rest half an hour and go back to my studies? HAHA. Thought so. Destiny didnt had the plan to let me sleep. After 10 min – already asleep – phone call. guy from work. 3 min (!) later call from a friend. talked a bit 🙂 closed eyes again. phone made sounds – already got set up…guess what? phone wants battery…got him some. already closed eyes. NEXT call. *woaaa next time I turn it off! Lesson learned.

so for now, I am sneaking around my chocolate treasure in the kitchen…I dont want to open, but I need it so badly. Stupid head. always wants to get his will. 

I want to bake a cake – not so good idea if you dont have enough people to eat. If I dont have, I need to eat it all alone XD but I shouldnt…

yesterday I got something sweet (sth like cake) but I got so disappointed of it. It tasted just like butter and dow. I wont buy it again – so I recommend not to shiny things, you will be disappointed, too.

But hey, I survived a week!

Dont forget to do your sports 😉

workingly yours



day#6 I wana wana wana haaaaave!

Published February 27, 2012 by mydayswithoutchocolate

Guys guys guys, OMG there we go: there is a whole cup of chocolate pieces N.E.X.T. T.O. M.E.

just by reading the name and kinds of chocolate I even can taste it! I wana haaaave! And I cant put away since I am together with friends working in our office of our students organization. Now my friend is offering me even more he has at home @.@ it’s a torture. C’mon I am not made of steal, I am a creepy week little little girl, who cant hold herself back for chocolate…

I will stay strong, even if the others are going to order pizza, I will order salad with some chicken I guess. At least to eat something REAL and not so flattering green stuff *haha I need something goooood to eat! *help please*

Anyway I am feeling the lack of chocolate these days.I can become stressed more easily, or even become upset. So pleae dont blame me…its the lack of chocolate.

there is a black hole in my stomache aching for CHOCOLATE.

I am wondering why I didnt dreamed of chocolate so far…

Let’s hope it wont start, otherwise I am really going crazy. 40 days to go.

Keep on going!


day#4#5 Shit happens and only to me

Published February 26, 2012 by mydayswithoutchocolate

Yup. I tried. I really tried.

First thing happened to me: opened the fridge to get out stuff for some salad. What happened: I opened and all eggs fell down to earth. ALL of them. 6 in total. You can imagine how the kitchen looked like and how my mood was. damn it. At least the kitchen is clean now.

You know weekends can be horrible? Your home working on your papers and it is not far to the kitchen. Really just some steps. You need a break, especially brain break – so why not eating chocolate? – You wana die? the only thing kept me from eating was the idea of failing. So I made compromiss: I can eat sweet cereals for breakfaast. Like: They dont count cause I love them for breakfast… I can live with that. But I still think about yesterday…We went to a big birthday party. In order not to pass out, you “prepare” yourself filling you up with good food. NO CHOCOLATE: Of course I would have preferred something creamy brown and sweet. Or ice cream! As long as it is not chocolate ice cream, it should be ok, isn’t it? But everybody knows eating much at the late evening is the dead for anybodies figure. Damn it. At least the night was great, we danced a lot and had much fun, so it was worth it! Only thing: I have to carry on the consequences now for some more days (at least I hope it will be days).

Anybody has some hints for me, what to do? I am not so motivated today, since I am becoming tired again (didnt slept so long…I think I dont need to tell you ^^)

Seriously, I need chocolate now! A really good piece *mjami* Going to the bathroom having chat with my enemy called scale isnt even as fun as I could have thought. We still hate each other…and I am not about making a good friendship with him…he and me both we are stubborn like hell. Maybe I should try to feed him? some chocolate he might like *haha

all together I guess I can say SUCCESS for the weekend. at least in the topic of chocolate. Upcoming will be hard I have a lot of stuff to do and when I am stressed I need chocolate like in all other situations of live. how many days we still have to go?????

41. … thats four times 10 days + 1. I survived – how many? – 5??? Im over.

Let’s try keeping motivation. I dont want to disappoint you!

for chocolate wishingly yours


day#3 Who the f*** needs presents?

Published February 24, 2012 by mydayswithoutchocolate

I survived day #3 *woopwoop

Ok, I had sweeter cereals for breakfast, but no chocolate *hehehe

Actually it was easy to survive today…I was at work the whole day! I had a deadline to catch so I was working concentrated the whole time. But not to tell u something boring, what do you think about birthday gifts? yeah, they are cool. Really. But why does it need to be a friend who loves German chocolate? (>o<)

I was not aware of that…I just went to Mr. Supermarket, still selling extra terrestrial expensive salads, to buy chocolate. Since it is eastern, you can’t forget that this time is coming. Everywhere – yeah the HELL EVERYWHERE – you can find chocolate and sweets. Especially the violet one and the blue bunnies (my favorite ones!)! It was questioning myself what will be the excuse to buy one for me, too?? I could keep it till eastern…I wana give it to my roomate *hehe…The little tiny one could be ok…oooh they are so “sweet” they should not be left here alone… damn it. good reasons for buying chocolate.

Ok. I can stand it! Of course I don’t wana lose at day #3. So I just bought the ones I needed. Haha. Did you mention that you can buy the stuff again if you would eat it? If nobody sees, it doesn’t count right? OMG they are lying next to me, I feel the taste on my tongue and I just wana bite in their head *rrooaaaaa Nobody would know if they suddenly jumped away at night…

So best just pack the package and close it. Don’t even face the bunnies DX – damn it. I got no tape. Now I am lost. I will put it under the table. Next thing to think about is how to stay cool at the evening. I will go out with friends, and it will be great tonight! I just need to figure out the drinks with less sugar. Do you think that’s possible? Let’s see how it works. If not I will know where my bunnies hide their selves.

Tomorrow is Saturday. Saturday. S.A.T.U.R.D.A.Y. a day home. And I am not alone. I still got chocolate in my kitchen…*help

bunnyly yours


day#2 I’m proud to kill myself

Published February 23, 2012 by mydayswithoutchocolate

Damn I got the proof: I am crazy, but proud!

Well first of all – SUCCESS! I didn’t had any chocolate today… I preferred eating sweet oranges than something “bad” sweet. *wohoo

So what? well besides the fact, that I was thinking the whole day how to avoid chocolate, I was thinking what I could eat instead @.@ so no good way to handle the situation. I remembered the fact, that eating is important, I should not stop, otherwise I will be double after eastern! So just taking care to reduce the amount a bit and forcing myself to eat more healthy things with vitamins. – You know, something more fresh, green or colored things growing on some plants.

Did you walked into supermarket these days and try to buy this funky stuff? I rapidly remembered why I did not eat too healthy till know…who wants to pay a monthly salary for a cucumber? or go on credit for buying pepper and bananas? Well, sorry Mr. Supermarket, I won’t be your new super duper client helping you to grow more of this stuff in your garden…anyway I found some “ok-stuff” for “ok-money” I guess. But I didn’t bought it. Yes. Since I didn’t take my suitcase full of money with me, I decided I will get it another day – after marrying a rich guy, win the lotto or just right after getting my salary 😀

Today, well I was still motivated to fight against my “backrolls”, who already have their own life. I call them “Lolli” and “Rolli”. I think they enjoying their free rides at my back too much…So I thought “Hey let’s go to do sports!” – Haha…yeah I like sports, really! But I was so tired, that I was walking home slow (from university) and missed the tram to the gym. The course was about Aerobics and bit of kick-boxing. I need to admit, that I actually love this course! But not today…

I chose not to go. Somehow I should not. If I don’t go, I won’t be more tired. It’s too late now. – Shut the f** off, You made a promise! Not only to yourself also to one of my best friends! In order to help her losing weight, we made a promise: We (yeah, we try together even there are some thousand kilometers between us) will lose weight till eastern. If we succeed, she will buy tickets to my place and I will show her around. We will have so much fun together again ❤ She is one of the reasons who keeps me going…This is why I thought: “No sports means I am super stupid!” Something I have to do…

In order to punish myself for not participating in my sports class I let myself do the thing I hate the most: RUNNING! I would prefer doing a 3h hard work out than running half an hour! But punishment is punishment, and of course as total noob I could not start power running. I did it in a rhythm I could follow, with short fast walking breaks. As you can read, I survived…Next time, I won’t miss my sports class again! Nevertheless I’m proud I did it.

Iam already thinking what to have for lunch tomorrow..that’s too bad. So I just gonna make a good tea and hope I will find something soon, otherwise I gonna dream of it!

runningly yours


Btw. Does chocolate tea counts as chocolate? (*_*)